Tonight, Sweety and I took part in an online marking of the winter solstice.
In part, it was like an inventory of the losses and heartaches the year has brought for many in attendance, and there have been many; some big, some small and yet, here we are. We are blessed in so many ways, yet it is also important to acknowledge the fires we have walked through together to get to the present.
The thing that I was left with was hope. Hope that next year, much of this current world state might be history; that by then we’ll have had many, many, long, weeping hugs with those we love but cannot hold right now; that we won’t lose any more loved ones; that those less fortunate will be protected and safe; that we’ll appreciate, even more, the things we can someday resume, like gatherings with friends and family… and that we won’t forget what we’ve gone through, that we’ll honour it, and appreciate the strengths of ourselves and others that got us through.
In the meantime, I found a song that seems to speak about this dark time, the in-between place our society has become stuck in as we and our systems and governments struggle with how to cope and continue; that time where there is, for want of better descriptions, a lack of colour.
I recently posted “Rain King” by Counting Crows and stumbled on their music again tonight in a search. “Colorblind” is a good fit, I think, to this time of the longest night, and looking ahead to that little bit of extra light each day… dreaming of those seemingly impossibly distant, long, hot summer evenings when (at least in my part of the world) it is bright by 6:00 am and still there is light at 10:00 pm; the streets aren’t silent until much later, as people take in as much of the lightness as they can.
There is a lot of black and white in the world right now: the cold, dullness of winter, exacerbated by the limitations we live with, in this time. May there be more colour soon… in our hearts at least, imagining those fields of wildflowers that seem to spring up from nothing and create magic and beauty in the light of the sun. May we all be part of that creating, holding and living that light.
Now you know a little about why this is my song of the day for today. Thanks for joining me here, and please enjoy.
Here’s the audio from Counting Crows’ YouTube topic channel: